At the age of 20 I noticed my hairline was starting to receed and making my forehead look larger and unproportioned with my face. The temple was starting to slightly thin as well. Over the next 9 years the hair got thinner, my forehead appeared bigger.. I cant describe in brief words the negative impact this had on my life. I constantly looked in the car mirror and dreaded sunny days, I wouldnt sit under spot lights in resturants, I HATED wedding photos (which I was in), and most other photos, when people pointed it out to me my stomach would churn, it affected relationships, my professional work...TRUST ME THE LIST WAS ENDLESS!!.
I also remember when I first noticed my hair was dissapearing......I would look in the mirror in the bathroom everyday, looking at the back, and front over and over again... I then started 'googling' and plucked up enough courage to visit a trichologist and expected her to tell me I was being paraonoid, but hell no....she said "you have MPB".....I remember feeling like this was the end of the world, feeling sick, very very low, and not sleeping much... Suicidal? No, but I didnt want to be on this planet with no hair..
Overall I thought about my hair (or lack of it, EVERYDAY!) and wanted the ground to swallow me up. For F&%k sake...Im in my 20's, not my 60's...why is this happening to me at this age???? |